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Why, hello there~
You have reached Lillymon's Art Journal, a place where I sporadically post random scribbles, unfinished WIPs, finished art and other whatnots. You can also expect occasional anime/manga fangirl-ing and music related posts. If you are interested, feel free to friend this journal to receive updates on your friend's page.

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Thank you for visiting.
15th-Nov-2009 03:53 pm - Junks
I'm so stressed over this whole studying thing my hair is turning white. Why is time moving so fast ? Eldest brother is dropping by in 5 days and the approaching eid adds to the stress. There is so much house works to do I think November will end without me making any significant progress.

Stress relief doodle orzlll


and a couple of old sketches;
Read more... )

I'm working hard. I hope something good comes out of it because if nothing happens, I'm so going to kill somebody D8<
I need to stop complaining and act like a tough man! I'll be fine. Thank you to everyone who left cheering comments on the previous entry. I really appreciate it. God knows how much I needed a hug that day T3T You all made me feel better.
Thank you ♥
Zetsubou sensei ★ brb dying ...
9th-Oct-2009 01:37 pm - Meme
I've always wanted to do this meme 8'D

Rules;

» Pick your birth month.
» Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
» Highlight the statements that best apply to you.
» Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
» Tag 5 people from your friends list.

My birth month is AUGUST.
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


12 months )

Not tagging any but feel free to do it if you haven't so far. It'd be nice to know about your personality.
SPN ★ Dean ♥
3rd-Oct-2009 03:46 pm - Thank you!
Thank you gift for gossymer
I've been a complete pain in the ass the past two months orz but thank you very much for your time, your kindness and most importantly for your patience with me. I truly appreciate it. I know this is nothing much but here is a cute Adam for you ;3;
I need to draw another one for meronine. Amazing person ; m ;


Also, thanks alot everyone for the comments on the previous entry.  I'll get back to you as soon as I can ; m ;

P.S.; I'M IN LOVE WITH SUPERNATURAL DAMMIT THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO FALL INTO ANOTHER FANDOM ASDFKDLSJFL;JA DEAN IS SO CUTE AAGHHHH A;DLK;K.

DOGS ★ Loki 'n Noki - we ♥ you
1st-Oct-2009 08:15 pm - Life, commissions & stuff
Wow! It's been so long since I've last posted a proper update. So many have f-cut me but lol, I don't blame them. I'm practically dead here orz. Sorry about that once again and also for not commenting much to friend's entries. A lot has been going on in my life as of late it's hard for me to be active online and still take care of other offline matters. It's also why I closed my website for those who've been asking about it.

Currently I'm taking up A-Levels in three sciences; chemistry, physics & biology. My exam is due on January, 7th or someday around it so I have to give it my all since my entry to medical school depends on how I'll score in these exams. I'm a little bit worried since I'm sitting for the exam as a private candidate but I have confidence I'll make it through with a string of A's C=
Studying on my own is a little tedious but I'm trying my best to manage my time. I hope it'll go well. Wish me good luck everyone ♥

I'll still be drawing on weekends and so. I'll try to finish the artworks I owe to people but it'll take time. Lots of it. I know over the past year I've been taking ridiculously long times to get artworks done but I've had some issues that severely affected the way I look at my own crapart orz. I've spent my summer practicing on improving my shortcomings and I think I'm ready to say I'm somewhat satisfied with the progress I've made. I sure need to practice more there is still so much more to learn but I'm seeing things better now. I know I can do a better job with each drawing. Thanks alot to the two arrogant artists who rejected my finished commissioned images even though they did approved of it when it was still in drawing stages. They even refused presenting any reasons as to why so I could at least modify their images.
Usually I don't care much what everyone else think but these two particular artists happened to be ones I highly admired their art. They are still my idol artists but I can't understand why they did what they did.

I was upset over it for a very long time & this really shook my confidence as an artist. This incident made me take down my dA gallery for three months back in May but now that I look at it, I'm kinda grateful this happened. The actions of these two made me realize how deluded I was to even think my art is worth paying for let alone having someone with better art skills like it. This is also part of why I've kept the remaining commission requests on hold for this long especially that one of the requests is by another artist I greatly admire. I want to resume when I'm sure I can present something that worth what I'm being paid for. If my drawing was mediocre to some, I'm sure others think so as well but they are too nice to tell me. I just don't want what happened to repeat orz.

Tip for anyone out there who likes to commission artists. Don't request commissions from someone you don't like their style in drawing. It's pointless and hurts the artist really bad. Artists are usually not very good at handling rejection since they tend to be very sensitive about what they create and it means alot to them. I got over it & learned something from it but someone else might not.

I didn't want to talk about this but I needed to write it down.


Oh and I started watching Supernatural 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDD Dean is so cute ♥ Also, New House M.D. episodes are epic! and Merlin S2 is as cool as ever ♥3♥  I've always been bad at drawing real people but I really really want to draw Merlin, Arthur, Sam & Dean someday T3T ♥ I wonder when orz;

Long journal lol. Since site is closed, I'll be updating here more often. This time for real lol 8D

Cute ★ I'm lazy I'm procrastinating
14th-Sep-2009 11:16 pm - I need some help
Could someone help me download some documents please ; u ; ?

I'm trying to download some A-Level revision materials & past papers from this site. Problem is, the files I want to download are uploaded on rapidshitare and that site doesn't allow me to download more than one file every 24 hours orz;
Could someone please download all edexcel AS and A-level materials for Biology, Physics & Chemistry, Zip them and upload them to mediafire ?
I'll be very grateful for your help.

Here, have a drawing as a reward ; u ;


Thank you very much Nakayoshi chan


moral-extremist's boys; JiSung & RaeWon. Title ganked from her drawing of these two characters.

Thank you very much in advance m(_ _)m

p.s.; I'm very very sorry for the lack of updates and activity over LJ & every where else. I'm very sorry I'm not commenting much and I'm not sure when will I be able to ; u ; Not that anyone notices but if your policy is to cut inactive users, feel more than free to defriend me orz;
Cute ★ Stressed, too much work
7th-Apr-2009 09:14 pm - Journal title
So, I'm backing up my files and I come across some drawings I made early this year that I totally forgot about. I remember I was really happy with those images back then but now I'm looking at them and I can't believe the amount of horrible mistakes I see in them now. It hasn't been much since February so it's not that I've improved and whatnot. Idk, I don't understand how could I miss such obvious mistakes orz;
Hearing too much praises isn't good at all. Even though I deny it, I think it somewhat gave me a false feeling that I'm doing alright artistically when in reality, I'm not. I need someone to hit me hard with a critique hammer every now and then and bunch of others who will constantly tell me I suck big time in drawing.

I'm glad I'm able to spot my mistakes. Mistakes that once were totally non-existent to me but now makes me feel like shift+deleting my entire gallery. It says something to me.
What bothers me is that it takes me a long while to figure out I'm doing things wrong on my own and for this reason, would it be too much if I ask you, whoever spends time to view my works, to be honest with me when it comes to what I draw ? I'm not asking you to do detailed critique-ing and stuff coz I believe what I draw is too plain & simple to be critiqued orz;;; I understand that my drawings have got no ideas behind it, no fancy concepts or even emotions but despite that, if something did look weird\wrong to you in anatomy, colors, composition or lack of orzlll, please, do not hold back & let me know what looks off to you.

I wish I had more time to draw & practice without being interrupted by family responsibilities. I can't wait for summer vacations to start so I'll get rid of some annoying faces.

Sorry for always ranting about my drawings and crap but it's important to me and I care about doing well in it.



I want to draw more Grahams so badly orz; I can't stop thinking about him even though I'm only in episode 06 season1 of G00 sob. The drama CD is totally addicting ;v; Hamu sensei ♥

I need to use refs for union uniforms =3=;

p.s.;
Because my current laptop keeps crashing & freezing for no obvious reason, I ordered this laptop I've always been dreaming about. It should arrive anytime next week so hopefully I'll be able to work on all the artworks I owe to everyone in peace. I'm really sorry I've been putting those off for so long. You guys must be hating me now but seriously, it's not procrastination orz;

m(_ _)m;;;;

p.p.s.;
I'm really sorry I haven't been checking my friend's journals here for the longest time and haven't been regular in commenting to you people. I'm surprised no one has f-cut me so far even though I was expecting some because of my inactivity TvT
End of April, everything will be settled by then inshallah & I'll be more regular then. At least I can hope.

orz

Take care everyone.
Gundam 00 ★ srs bznz Hamu~
27th-Mar-2009 01:21 pm - Art post
Haha, I wrote a long rant but ended up deleting it because ... I don't know, I felt so stupid or something lol but it felt really good while I was typing. Sorry for being so inactive online but life is really hectic over here. Too much shit to handle, family problems, kids to teach, people to look after, daily stupid endless house chores and whatnot orz; I feel like a 45 years old obasan TWT; anyways,

Art tiem! I should not say sorry for whatever I want to do with my journal here but sorry for those who have to see the drawings below *again* lol but it's only four or five of you lol. I'm adding it here for those who don't visit my homepage so please bear with it until I have something more recent in the coming update orz.

Old crap )

WIP

And a WIP lol. Idk why do I torture myself drawing something I know it'll take me forever and the end result will not be satisfying. That guitar thing is so going to be a pain in the ass orz.

Now, I need to prioritize me to-do list. RE:play contest entry comes first. I'm still sketching it OTL;;; I don't think I'll make it on time but I'll work my ass off the coming two days T_T and then comes finishing commissions. I really need to stop getting side-tracked with drawing fanarts T_T;;;;;;; OOOSH! FIGHT-OOOO

Stay well everyone & be happy for me T_T
SPN ★ Dean ♥
25th-Feb-2009 02:36 pm - Using textures in Paint tool SAI
nce I don’t have any scribbles to update with today and I really don’t want to skip this month’s regular updates so instead, I’ll write a little tutorial on how to add textures to paint tool SAI because a lot of search strings leading to this site are SAI texture related. Please, forgive any language mistakes but I’m trying to keep this as simple as I can so that anyone can easily follow it.
It took me a while to figure out how to do this so I hope this will be helpful to someone out there. Also, it might sound confusing at first but it’s really simple if you thoroughly read what’s written here. Remember to backup the every file before you’ll modify just in case you screwed up something so you won’t blame it on me lol.

There are three main steps to adding textures to SAI; create or find textures, copy textures to the appropriate folders and modify the configuration files.

Before starting, you’ll need some good textures to use with SAI. You can create your own textures using softwares like NeL TexGen Editor or download personal textures shared by some generous artists from the links below.

sai-texture.zip (2.03MB) | xxlost.com/material
sai textures pack (1.50MB) | hineck.pxx.in/RERE
Texture/elemap pack (7.50MB) | by parfhelbelia @ dA

Once you’ve downloaded the above files, keep them aside and proceed reading here. You’ll need to learn where to place these files before you do anything.
Please note that there are four type of textures used by SAI:

blotmap for brush border textures.
brushtex for brush stroke textures.
papertex for canvas textures.
elemap for brush form and shape.

Brushtex, papertex and blotmap can use the same texture bmp-s while elemap which is for brushtip shape requires different type of texture images.
Also, keep in mind that textures are 512×512 8bit grayscale bmp-s and blotmaps are 256×256 8bit grayscale bmp-s.
Now, unzip the files you downloaded and browse through them. If there are any file names written in gibberish language or Japanese, please have them renamed properly in English for convenient editing later on.

Folders to add textures to

Pick the textures you liked and copy them to the folders they belong to (brushtip shapes must go to elemap folder and the rest .bmp images can go to any of the remaining three). Now depending on which folder you copied the files to, you must modify the corresponding configuration file as well. For example, if you copied grain.bmp to your papertex folder, you’ll need to add a new line in the papertex.conf file or if you added rock.bmp to your brushtex folder, you must add a new line in brushtex.conf file and so on.

Files to modify

Above are the three configuration files you must edit if you added images to their corresponding texture folders. You must modify;

brushform.conf if you added files to elemap/blotmap folder,
brushtex.conf if you added files to brushtex folder,
papertex.conf if you added files to papertex folder
.

Now, once you’ve copied the textures or blotmaps you like, open the configuration files for the folders you’ve edited.
You’ll see that there are already a list of texture configurations. Something like 1,brushtex\Canvas.bmp, 1,papertex\Canvas.bmp or 1,blotmap\Spread.bmp. All you have to do is to copy as many lines as the number of new files you added and edit the texture file names only.
For example;
You added a texture file named watercolor.bmp to your papertex folder. You’ll have to open papertex.conf and add a new line that says 1,papertex\watercolor.bmp and save. Same goes for the other files. Repeat until you’ve added the names of all new textures in their respective configuration files, save your file and give yourself a pat on the back for you’ve just learned how to carry out this task. Spread the knowledge if you found someone else confused about this or link them to this post (´・ω・`)

Open paint tool SAI, you’ll be able to see the new textures in the texture menu or in the brush texture menu. Just look at how pretty the below brush strokes look 8D

results

Now, for an extra tip to anyone who likes tidy workspaces.

Change default interface font size

Because I’m a neat freak and font sizes larger than 10px freaks me out and causes me major distractions, here is how you can change SAI’s default translation font size from 12px to 10px.

Open language.conf and look for :

FontCaption = 0, 13, "Tahoma"
FontFixedPitch = 0, 13, "Tahoma"
FontVariablePitch = 0, 13, "Tahoma"
FontFixedPitchSmall = 0, 11, "Tahoma"
FontVariablePitchSmall = 0, 11, "Tahoma"

Replace these lines with :

FontCaption = 0, 11, "Tahoma"
FontFixedPitch = 6, 11, "Tahoma"
FontVariablePitch = 0, 11, "Tahoma"
FontFixedPitchSmall = 5, 11, "Tahoma"
FontVariablePitchSmall = 0, 11, "Tahoma"

and you are done! You’ve got yourself a shiny neat SAI with beautiful tiny fonts instead of the hideous larger ones 8D

If you’ve got any questions or got confused anywhere in the process, please don’t hesitate to ask and once again, remember to back up just in case you didn’t like the results and needed to revert to your original settings. Also, if you found out any mistakes in my process or noticed that I’m misinformed about some stuff, don’t hesitate to correct me lol.
Happy texturing!

Cute ★ I'm lazy I'm procrastinating
21st-Feb-2009 06:07 pm - Remove Adds for Plus accounts 8D
So I just switched to plus account because I need the extra links on the sidebar thing and the custom comments page lol and as a result, some of you might be seeing some fugly ads to the left of this journal Orz.
My journal looks clean and ad free on my computer and because I don't want my pretty layout to looks ugly to some of you, here is what you can do to remove LJ ads (and almost all other ads on the internet) forever 8D.

Note: This is for FireFox users only :(

- Install Stylish Addon if you haven't yet.
- Load into stylish the livejournal.com Remove ads custom user style.
- And as an extra nice thing to do to block ads from all the internet, you might want to install the adblock plus addon in your browser.

For IE, Opera, Maxthon, Flock, Safari, Chrome and other browser users, I'm sorry you have to see those advertisments m(_ _)m but you can always switch to Firefox and live happily ever after *bricked*
Reborn ★ Happy Lambo
14th-Feb-2009 08:08 pm - Art post !
New LJ Layout 8'DDD


I hope it's not too dark for reading. I've got nothing to say so I'll just post some artworks and get back to my works.



+4 under cut )

I'm sorry if you have to see these for the second time but only a handful visit my site so it's ok if I post these for those who don't go there 8D
*back to drawing*
SPN ★ Dean ♥
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