So, I'm backing up my files and I come across some drawings I made early this year that I totally forgot about. I remember I was really happy with those images back then but now I'm looking at them and I can't believe the amount of horrible mistakes I see in them now. It hasn't been much since February so it's not that I've improved and whatnot. Idk, I don't understand how could I miss such obvious mistakes orz;
Hearing too much praises isn't good at all. Even though I deny it, I think it somewhat gave me a false feeling that I'm doing alright artistically when in reality, I'm not. I need someone to hit me hard with a critique hammer every now and then and bunch of others who will constantly tell me I suck big time in drawing.

I'm glad I'm able to spot my mistakes. Mistakes that once were totally non-existent to me but now makes me feel like shift+deleting my entire gallery. It says something to me.
What bothers me is that it takes me a long while to figure out I'm doing things wrong on my own and for this reason, would it be too much if I ask you, whoever spends time to view my works, to be honest with me when it comes to what I draw ? I'm not asking you to do detailed critique-ing and stuff coz I believe what I draw is too plain & simple to be critiqued orz;;; I understand that my drawings have got no ideas behind it, no fancy concepts or even emotions but despite that, if something did look weird\wrong to you in anatomy, colors, composition or lack of orzlll, please, do not hold back & let me know what looks off to you.

I wish I had more time to draw & practice without being interrupted by family responsibilities. I can't wait for summer vacations to start so I'll get rid of some annoying faces.

Sorry for always ranting about my drawings and crap but it's important to me and I care about doing well in it.



I want to draw more Grahams so badly orz; I can't stop thinking about him even though I'm only in episode 06 season1 of G00 sob. The drama CD is totally addicting ;v; Hamu sensei ♥

I need to use refs for union uniforms =3=;

p.s.;
Because my current laptop keeps crashing & freezing for no obvious reason, I ordered this laptop I've always been dreaming about. It should arrive anytime next week so hopefully I'll be able to work on all the artworks I owe to everyone in peace. I'm really sorry I've been putting those off for so long. You guys must be hating me now but seriously, it's not procrastination orz;

m(_ _)m;;;;

p.p.s.;
I'm really sorry I haven't been checking my friend's journals here for the longest time and haven't been regular in commenting to you people. I'm surprised no one has f-cut me so far even though I was expecting some because of my inactivity TvT
End of April, everything will be settled by then inshallah & I'll be more regular then. At least I can hope.

orz

Take care everyone.
♥

Haha, I wrote a long rant but ended up deleting it because ... I don't know, I felt so stupid or something lol but it felt really good while I was typing. Sorry for being so inactive online but life is really hectic over here. Too much shit to handle, family problems, kids to teach, people to look after, daily stupid endless house chores and whatnot orz; I feel like a 45 years old obasan TWT; anyways,

Art tiem! I should not say sorry for whatever I want to do with my journal here but sorry for those who have to see the drawings below *again* lol but it's only four or five of you lol. I'm adding it here for those who don't visit my homepage so please bear with it until I have something more recent in the coming update orz.

( Old crap )


And a WIP lol. Idk why do I torture myself drawing something I know it'll take me forever and the end result will not be satisfying. That guitar thing is so going to be a pain in the ass orz.

Now, I need to prioritize me to-do list. RE:play contest entry comes first. I'm still sketching it OTL;;; I don't think I'll make it on time but I'll work my ass off the coming two days T_T and then comes finishing commissions. I really need to stop getting side-tracked with drawing fanarts T_T;;;;;;; OOOSH! FIGHT-OOOO

Stay well everyone & be happy for me T_T

So I just switched to plus account because I need the extra links on the sidebar thing and the custom comments page lol and as a result, some of you might be seeing some fugly ads to the left of this journal Orz.
My journal looks clean and ad free on my computer and because I don't want my pretty layout to looks ugly to some of you, here is what you can do to remove LJ ads (and almost all other ads on the internet) forever 8D.

Note: This is for FireFox users only :(

- Install Stylish Addon if you haven't yet.
- Load into stylish the livejournal.com Remove ads custom user style.
- And as an extra nice thing to do to block ads from all the internet, you might want to install the adblock plus addon in your browser.

For IE, Opera, Maxthon, Flock, Safari, Chrome and other browser users, I'm sorry you have to see those advertisments m(_ _)m but you can always switch to Firefox and live happily ever after *bricked*

New LJ Layout 8'DDD


I hope it's not too dark for reading. I've got nothing to say so I'll just post some artworks and get back to my works.



( +4 under cut )

I'm sorry if you have to see these for the second time but only a handful visit my site so it's ok if I post these for those who don't go there 8D
*back to drawing*

And here I thought I was a smart person.
But lol, I'm damn sure I got most of the questions right 8D why the 124 ? idk



Back to drawing .3.;;;

I'm feeling so cranky today I'm trying to avoid contact with human beings so I won't say or do something I might regret later on. I hate it when this happens orz. There are so much things I want to do but I can't concentrate because I think I'm depressed or something. Idk but I'm not well which is unusual =w=; I hope I'm out of it soon because I can't afford to waste more time orz.
In the past three days, I've cleared some of my to do list but nothing art related. Finished the new layout for my website and I'm shocked how pretty it looks 8D lol. I still need to optimize it for Opera but it looks perfect in almost all other browsers. I also deleted more than half of my artworks online here and there, removed all old blog entries everywhere and most importantly, I feel so proud I fixed an impossible gallery script error when I know NOTHING about php and shit XDDD haha. I felt impressed with myself when I was done with the gallery lol 8D FYI, integrating ZenPhoto gallery script to your wordpress is a srz bznz for people like me who don't know their way around codes and function calling! Plus, only few can integrate it seamlessly lol hehe.
I still need to make the index page and finish the top image for it. My gallery is empty so I'll have to upload some images there too. Links section needs updating and I still haven't started working on the matching LJ layout.
Such a bad habit of wanting everything to match orzorzorzlllll

Anyways, some sketches;


Poofy hair lolool 8D I didn't notice until after I've scanned the image that his arm is very short orz. The hair looks so messy especially around the bottom but meh >_> I couldn't get it fixed any more than this.
I found out while drawing this that the papers of my sketchbook are of very bad quality. If I erase an area more than twice, the paper starts ripping little by little oAolll I think I'll have to drop by art supplies store someday OR live with that sketchbook and learn not to depend on eraser too much lol 8D


Hika chan's character Val. Instead of drawing random characters, I thought I'd draw all my friend's original characters or else, all the random boys I'll draw will end up naked because dressing them and designing outfits for them is such a pain I don't have time for it lol 8D Val looks really wonky compared to the real thing but first time sketches are always like that lol. He'll look better if I draw him again.


And Phoenix san's Silvador. It's almost finished but needs some fixing here and there, some texts, more playing with textures and a little color correction. I think I'll never release the uncropped version since it's too revealing (/3\*) and Phoenix might kill me for abusing her bishounen in such a perverted way loloolol 8D

Question
I wonder if OC owners hate it or like it when they receive fanarts ? I mean obviously, most of OC artists are always against fanarts but do they hate fanarts of their own characters as well ?
If you own an OC, do you mind seeing artworks that depict your characters without your persmission, of course when all credits are given to you clearly ? I suppose majority don't really mind it and some might feel flattered someone out there is liking their creation enough to want to draw them but say, I did something very kinky to one of your boys, would you, as the character's creator, feel bad ? offended ? O_O ?
I don't know. I have only one under-developed OC but I think I wouldn't mind if someone stripped him for a sexy pose lol.
I'm just worried my friends whose OCs I frequently draw might be hating or disliking me abusing their boys but they are too nice to tell me that ? idk >_> I guess I'm think too much =3=!

Note to self:
REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES AND E-MAILS DAMMIT OTLlllllllll

Happy new year ? lol, it's still January so I can wish you a happy new year 8D *shot*
It's been a long time since I've last checked my F-list. Please, forgive me for not commenting to your journals in so long. I know it might not be that important to anyone but for some friends, I'm not skipping your posts ;-; and for those who have it as a rule to comment frequently, I'm sorry I failed to keep up orz.
I'll be on LJ as soon as I'm done with the drawings I'm currently working on. It shouldn't take long >_<

I hope you guys are doing great. Holidays are over here. Everyone is back to schools which is a good thing, at least for me lol. The only free time I get is when my kid siblings are at school or asleep orz. A lot of things have happened in the past month both good and bad but it was mostly more bad than good. At times like this, I feel glad that I'm the forgetful type of people. Bad thing happens now, five minutes later I don't remember a thing about it lol. There is so much I want to do this year but I'll have to write them down properly in another post so I won't forget (-ε-;)

Some artworks;



And a couple of Mononoke sketches;

Don't ask me what the first sketch is >_> It's just, ... idk OTL;;;
I think I should find a new obsession as strong as my obsession with Kusuriuri. I'm thinking Squallo *____* <333 but I'll have to brainwash myself first lol. My sketchbooks are getting filled with mononoke stuff it's not even healthy orz.
I'll try to upload more often from now on and I think I will now that I have the draw-one-sketch-per-day resolution lol. I really haven't drawn anything in my sketchbook since the beginning of this year because of family problems but I'll try to make up for it.

Practice time (￣△￣)ノ

Took this meme from kitmun :D
Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

Forget It

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
The red drops blur my lips
I can't breathe when you leave, Come back before I suffocate.
You must know someone like him, He was tall and strong and lean
I heard the voice of the wind I want to know the rest of the dream
Oh life, is bigger. It's bigger than you
When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
I looked into your eyes,
A trashed out Magazine, An untarnished spirit
I know this will not remain forever
Looking up at the night sky alone, I saw a comet
Being hit by the sleet, my life can be sharpened,
One thing, I don’t know why
Choosing only the things you like
The colour of the wind that blows through the sky
Close your eyes, look up at the sky, and keep dancing barefoot
Here I am with open arms, waiting for my boy to come to me
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
Now the day has come, We are forsaken this time
In the wind shot through with sighs, I saw it

I had a hard time finishing this since 85% of my playlist are all instrumentals and another 10% are Japanese songs to which there are no translations online. But the end poem sounds funny 8P. The titles fits really well too. Thanks to Breaking Benjamin for that :D

Dentist appointment tomorrow.

I've got this little problem I'm hoping someone out here will be able to guide me a little orz.
I'd like to make a couple of prints for a friend of mine. The problem is, I've never drawn anything that is of decent printing quality because I don't know how to do it orz. I know alot of you artists are making prints out of your art so I was wondering if anyone is willing to share some tips ?
What canvas size do you guys draw on for printing purposes (A4 or larger?) ? RBG or CYMK ? Do these two make any difference at all @@? and is a 150 dpi enough resolution for the canvas ?
Also, do I need to avoid certain colors ? I heard many stories about artists having to retouch their images because the printing houses tell them that there are too much greens or (name some color) o_o;
Any other thing I need to know ?

Thank you in advance for any tip or advice ♥

Current WIP, this one is totally unplanned but I really needed to move it up my priority list. Sorry to commisisoners >_<
The friend who is going to receive this has made me so much happy at times I was most depressed. I'm too poor to return her material gifts with something of equal value but I'm pouring my heart and soul into this image so I'm hoping it'd mean something more than any material gift I could've ever afforded T_T
Reno from FF:AC ♥ I'll probably finish it by tomorrow morning.

YOOOSHA >[]</ *back to SAI*

Also, sorry I haven't been checking my f-list as of late. I've got connection problems since a week now but I hope it'll be fixed soon orz.
Good thing is that when you are offline, you get to finish alot of RL works that you keep on leaving for later lol. So, I did alot of stuff I needed to do long ago and I also got to sketch alot 8D.
I still have heaps of laundry to do OTL, I hate laundry TxT

Back to work.