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Junks

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 12:54:03 GMT

I'm so stressed over this whole studying thing my hair is turning white. Why is time moving so fast ? Eldest brother is dropping by in 5 days and the approaching eid adds to the stress. There is so much house works to do I think November will end without me making any significant progress.

Stress relief doodle orzlll

and a couple of old sketches;

I'm working hard. I hope something good comes out of it because if nothing happens, I'm so going to kill somebody D8<
I need to stop complaining and act like a tough man! I'll be fine. Thank you to everyone who left cheering comments on the previous entry. I really appreciate it. God knows how much I needed a hug that day T3T You all made me feel better.
Thank you ♥

Meme

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 11:08:12 GMT

I've always wanted to do this meme 8'D

Rules;
» Pick your birth month.
» Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
» Highlight the statements that best apply to you.
» Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
» Tag 5 people from your friends list.

My birth month is AUGUST.

~~Loves to joke. Attractive.~~ ~~Suave and~~ caring. Brave ~~and fearless~~. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous ~~and egoistic~~. Takes high pride in oneself. ~~Thirsty for praises~~. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. ~~Easily~~ jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. ~~Loves to lead and to be led~~. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts~~, music and defense~~. Sensitive but not petty. ~~Poor resistance against illnesses~~. Learns to relax. ~~Hasty and~~ trusty. ~~Romantic~~. ~~Loving and caring~~. ~~Loves to make friends~~.

JANUARY; Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY; Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH; Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL; Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY; Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE; Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY; Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST; Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER; Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER; Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER; Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER; Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Not tagging any but feel free to do it if you haven't so far. It'd be nice to know about your personality.

Thank you!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 13:02:03 GMT

Thank you gift for gossymer ♥
I've been a complete pain in the ass the past two months orz but thank you very much for your time, your kindness and most importantly for your patience with me. I truly appreciate it. I know this is nothing much but here is a cute Adam for you ;3;
I need to draw another one for meronine. Amazing person ; m ;

Also, thanks alot everyone for the comments on the previous entry. I'll get back to you as soon as I can ; m ;

P.S.; I'M IN LOVE WITH SUPERNATURAL DAMMIT THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO FALL INTO ANOTHER FANDOM ASDFKDLSJFL;JA DEAN IS SO CUTE AAGHHHH A;DLK;K.

Life, commissions & stuff

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 18:28:48 GMT

Wow! It's been so long since I've last posted a proper update. So many have f-cut me but lol, I don't blame them. I'm practically dead here orz. Sorry about that once again and also for not commenting much to friend's entries. A lot has been going on in my life as of late it's hard for me to be active online and still take care of other offline matters. It's also why I closed my website for those who've been asking about it.

Currently I'm taking up A-Levels in three sciences; chemistry, physics & biology. My exam is due on January, 7th or someday around it so I have to give it my all since my entry to medical school depends on how I'll score in these exams. I'm a little bit worried since I'm sitting for the exam as a private candidate but I have confidence I'll make it through with a string of A's C=
Studying on my own is a little tedious but I'm trying my best to manage my time. I hope it'll go well. Wish me good luck everyone ♥

I'll still be drawing on weekends and so. I'll try to finish the artworks I owe to people but it'll take time. Lots of it. I know over the past year I've been taking ridiculously long times to get artworks done but I've had some issues that severely affected the way I look at my own ~~crap~~art orz. I've spent my summer practicing on improving my shortcomings and I think I'm ready to say I'm somewhat satisfied with the progress I've made. I sure need to practice more there is still so much more to learn but I'm seeing things better now. I know I can do a better job with each drawing. Thanks alot to the two arrogant artists who rejected my finished commissioned images even though they did approved of it when it was still in drawing stages. They even refused presenting any reasons as to why so I could at least modify their images.
Usually I don't care much what everyone else think but these two particular artists happened to be ones I highly admired their art. They are still my idol artists but I can't understand why they did what they did.

I was upset over it for a very long time & this really shook my confidence as an artist. This incident made me take down my dA gallery for three months back in May but now that I look at it, I'm kinda grateful this happened. The actions of these two made me realize how deluded I was to even think my art is worth paying for let alone having someone with better art skills like it. This is also part of why I've kept the remaining commission requests on hold for this long especially that one of the requests is by another artist I greatly admire. I want to resume when I'm sure I can present something that worth what I'm being paid for. If my drawing was mediocre to some, I'm sure others think so as well but they are too nice to tell me. I just don't want what happened to repeat orz.

Tip for anyone out there who likes to commission artists. Don't request commissions from someone you don't like their style in drawing. It's pointless and hurts the artist really bad. Artists are usually not very good at handling rejection since they tend to be very sensitive about what they create and it means alot to them. I got over it & learned something from it but someone else might not.

I didn't want to talk about this but I needed to write it down.

Oh and I started watching Supernatural 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDD Dean is so cute ♥ Also, New House M.D. episodes are epic! and Merlin S2 is as cool as ever ♥3♥ I've always been bad at drawing real people but I really really want to draw Merlin, Arthur, Sam & Dean someday T3T ♥ I wonder when orz;

Long journal lol. Since site is closed, I'll be updating here more often. This time for real lol 8D

I need some help

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 20:47:22 GMT

Could someone help me download some documents please ; u ; ?

I'm trying to download some A-Level revision materials & past papers from this site. Problem is, the files I want to download are uploaded on rapidshitare and that site doesn't allow me to download more than one file every 24 hours orz;
Could someone please download all edexcel AS and A-level materials for Biology, Physics & Chemistry, Zip them and upload them to mediafire ?
I'll be very grateful for your help.

Here, have a drawing as a reward ; u ;

Thank you very much Nakayoshi chan ♥

moral-extremist's boys; JiSung & RaeWon. Title ganked from her drawing of these two characters.

Thank you very much in advance m(_ _)m

p.s.; I'm very very sorry for the lack of updates and activity over LJ & every where else. I'm very sorry I'm not commenting much and I'm not sure when will I be able to ; u ; Not that anyone notices but if your policy is to cut inactive users, feel more than free to defriend me orz;

Journal title

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 19:28:24 GMT

So, I'm backing up my files and I come across some drawings I made early this year that I totally forgot about. I remember I was really happy with those images back then but now I'm looking at them and I can't believe the amount of horrible mistakes I see in them now. It hasn't been much since February so it's not that I've improved and whatnot. Idk, I don't understand how could I miss such obvious mistakes orz;
Hearing too much praises isn't good at all. Even though I deny it, I think it somewhat gave me a false feeling that I'm doing alright artistically when in reality, I'm not. I need someone to hit me hard with a critique hammer every now and then and bunch of others who will constantly tell me I suck big time in drawing.

I'm glad I'm able to spot my mistakes. Mistakes that once were totally non-existent to me but now makes me feel like shift+deleting my entire gallery. It says something to me.
What bothers me is that it takes me a long while to figure out I'm doing things wrong on my own and for this reason, would it be too much if I ask you, whoever spends time to view my works, to be honest with me when it comes to what I draw ? I'm not asking you to do detailed critique-ing and stuff coz I believe what I draw is too plain & simple to be critiqued orz;;; I understand that my drawings have got no ideas behind it, no fancy concepts or even emotions but despite that, if something did look weird\wrong to you in anatomy, colors, composition ~~or lack of orzlll~~, please, do not hold back & let me know what looks off to you.

I wish I had more time to draw & practice without being interrupted by family responsibilities. I can't wait for summer vacations to start so I'll get rid of some annoying faces.

Sorry for always ranting about my drawings and crap but it's important to me and I care about doing well in it.

I want to draw more Grahams so badly orz; I can't stop thinking about him even though I'm only in episode 06 season1 of G00 sob. The drama CD is totally addicting ;v; Hamu sensei ♥

I need to use refs for union uniforms =3=;

p.s.;
Because my current laptop keeps crashing & freezing for no obvious reason, I ordered this laptop I've always been dreaming about. It should arrive anytime next week so hopefully I'll be able to work on all the artworks I owe to everyone in peace. I'm really sorry I've been putting those off for so long. You guys must be hating me now but seriously, it's not procrastination orz;

m(_ _)m;;;;

p.p.s.;
I'm really sorry I haven't been checking my friend's journals here for the longest time and haven't been regular in commenting to you people. I'm surprised no one has f-cut me so far even though I was expecting some because of my inactivity TvT
End of April, everything will be settled by then inshallah & I'll be more regular then. At least I can hope.

orz

Take care everyone.
♥

Art post

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 16:14:18 GMT

Haha, I wrote a long rant but ended up deleting it because ... I don't know, I felt so stupid or something lol but it felt really good while I was typing. Sorry for being so inactive online but life is really hectic over here. Too much shit to handle, family problems, kids to teach, people to look after, daily stupid endless house chores and whatnot orz; I feel like a 45 years old obasan TWT; anyways,

Art tiem! I should not say sorry for whatever I want to do with my journal here but sorry for those who have to see the drawings below *again* lol but it's only four or five of you lol. I'm adding it here for those who don't visit my homepage so please bear with it until I have something more recent in the coming update orz.

First Hetalia fanart lol. Very simple but I really like these two ^////^ Austria makes such a good house wife huhuhuuu~ I still need to catch up with the manga though. Still stuck in chapter 3 >_<' Free time, please come ;_;

A coloring test in photoshop CS4. First time I draw something 100% in PS and I'm loving it *___* CS4 is amazing unlike all previous versions, the pressure sensitivity actually works! lol
I'd very much love to use it more often and maybe someday completely switch to using it for coloring instead of SAI but my laptop is so weak it can't handle a monstrous program like 'toshop TwT I seriously need to upgrade *emo*

Haha 8DDD MUSCLE FAIL! I'm sorry if I've burned anyone's eyes with too much meat m(_ _*)m but that's Jiguro for you TwT;;; If I strip him off his beef, he'll turn into someone else TwT;;;;; I'll do better next time, promise OTL;

And a WIP lol. Idk why do I torture myself drawing something I know it'll take me forever and the end result will not be satisfying. That guitar thing is so going to be a pain in the ass orz.

Now, I need to prioritize me to-do list. RE:play contest entry comes first. I'm still sketching it OTL;;; I don't think I'll make it on time but I'll work my ass off the coming two days T_T and then comes finishing commissions. I really need to stop getting side-tracked with drawing fanarts T_T;;;;;;; OOOSH! FIGHT-OOOO

Stay well everyone & be happy for me T_T

Remove Adds for Plus accounts 8D

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 15:53:53 GMT

So I just switched to plus account because I need the extra links on the sidebar thing and the custom comments page lol and as a result, some of you might be seeing some fugly ads to the left of this journal Orz.
My journal looks clean and ad free on my computer and because I don't want my pretty layout to looks ugly to some of you, here is what you can do to remove LJ ads (and almost all other ads on the internet) forever 8D.

Note: This is for FireFox users only :(

- Install Stylish Addon if you haven't yet.
- Load into stylish the livejournal.com Remove ads custom user style.
- And as an extra nice thing to do to block ads from all the internet, you might want to install the adblock plus addon in your browser.

For IE, Opera, Maxthon, Flock, Safari, Chrome and other browser users, I'm sorry you have to see those advertisments m(_ _)m but you can always switch to Firefox and live happily ever after *bricked*

Art post !

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 19:26:00 GMT

New LJ Layout 8'DDD

I hope it's not too dark for reading. I've got nothing to say so I'll just post some artworks and get back to my works.

I'm sorry if you have to see these for the second time but only a handful visit my site so it's ok if I post these for those who don't go there 8D
*back to drawing*

Internet says I'm dumb

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 23:28:36 GMT

And here I thought I was a smart person.
But lol, I'm damn sure I got most of the questions right 8D why the 124 ? idk

Back to drawing .3.;;;

Junk post~

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 18:49:57 GMT

I'm feeling so cranky today I'm trying to avoid contact with human beings so I won't say or do something I might regret later on. I hate it when this happens orz. There are so much things I want to do but I can't concentrate because I think I'm depressed or something. Idk but I'm not well which is unusual =w=; I hope I'm out of it soon because I can't afford to waste more time orz.
In the past three days, I've cleared some of my to do list but nothing art related. Finished the new layout for my website and I'm shocked how pretty it looks 8D lol. I still need to optimize it for Opera but it looks perfect in almost all other browsers. I also deleted more than half of my artworks online here and there, removed all old blog entries everywhere and most importantly, I feel so proud I fixed an impossible gallery script error when I know NOTHING about php and shit XDDD haha. I felt impressed with myself when I was done with the gallery lol 8D FYI, integrating ZenPhoto gallery script to your wordpress is a srz bznz for people like me who don't know their way around codes and function calling! Plus, only few can integrate it seamlessly lol hehe.
I still need to make the index page and finish the top image for it. My gallery is empty so I'll have to upload some images there too. Links section needs updating and I still haven't started working on the matching LJ layout.
Such a bad habit of wanting everything to match orzorzorzlllll

Anyways, some sketches;

Poofy hair lolool 8D I didn't notice until after I've scanned the image that his arm is very short orz. The hair looks so messy especially around the bottom but meh >_> I couldn't get it fixed any more than this.
I found out while drawing this that the papers of my sketchbook are of very bad quality. If I erase an area more than twice, the paper starts ripping little by little oAolll I think I'll have to drop by art supplies store someday OR live with that sketchbook and learn not to depend on eraser too much lol 8D

Hika chan's character Val. Instead of drawing random characters, I thought I'd draw all my friend's original characters or else, all the random boys I'll draw will end up naked because dressing them and designing outfits for them is such a pain I don't have time for it lol 8D Val looks really wonky compared to the real thing but first time sketches are always like that lol. He'll look better if I draw him again.

And Phoenix san's Silvador. It's almost finished but needs some fixing here and there, some texts, more playing with textures and a little color correction. I think I'll never release the uncropped version since it's too revealing (/3\*) and Phoenix might kill me for abusing her bishounen in such a perverted way loloolol 8D

Question
I wonder if OC owners hate it or like it when they receive fanarts ? I mean obviously, most of OC artists are always against fanarts but do they hate fanarts of their own characters as well ?
If you own an OC, do you mind seeing artworks that depict your characters without your persmission, of course when all credits are given to you clearly ? I suppose majority don't really mind it and some might feel flattered someone out there is liking their creation enough to want to draw them but say, I did something very kinky to one of your boys, would you, as the character's creator, feel bad ? offended ? O_O ?
I don't know. I have only one under-developed OC but I think I wouldn't mind if someone stripped him for a sexy pose lol.
I'm just worried my friends whose OCs I frequently draw might be hating or disliking me abusing their boys but they are too nice to tell me that ? idk >_> I guess I'm think too much =3=!

Note to self:
REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES AND E-MAILS DAMMIT OTLlllllllll

Art post

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 13:45:27 GMT

Happy new year ? lol, it's still January so I can wish you a happy new year 8D *shot*
It's been a long time since I've last checked my F-list. Please, forgive me for not commenting to your journals in so long. I know it might not be that important to anyone but for some friends, I'm not skipping your posts ;-; and for those who have it as a rule to comment frequently, I'm sorry I failed to keep up orz.
I'll be on LJ as soon as I'm done with the drawings I'm currently working on. It shouldn't take long >_<

I hope you guys are doing great. Holidays are over here. Everyone is back to schools which is a good thing, at least for me lol. The only free time I get is when my kid siblings are at school or asleep orz. A lot of things have happened in the past month both good and bad but it was mostly more bad than good. At times like this, I feel glad that I'm the forgetful type of people. Bad thing happens now, five minutes later I don't remember a thing about it lol. There is so much I want to do this year but I'll have to write them down properly in another post so I won't forget (-ε-;)

Some artworks;

And a couple of Mononoke sketches;

Don't ask me what the first sketch is >_> It's just, ... idk OTL;;;
I think I should find a new obsession as strong as my obsession with Kusuriuri. I'm thinking Squallo *____* <333 but I'll have to brainwash myself first lol. My sketchbooks are getting filled with mononoke stuff it's not even healthy orz.
I'll try to upload more often from now on and I think I will now that I have the draw-one-sketch-per-day resolution lol. I really haven't drawn anything in my sketchbook since the beginning of this year because of family problems but I'll try to make up for it.

Practice time (￣△￣)ノ

Music meme~

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 14:00:55 GMT

Took this meme from kitmun :D
Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

Forget It

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
The red drops blur my lips
I can't breathe when you leave, Come back before I suffocate.
You must know someone like him, He was tall and strong and lean
I heard the voice of the wind I want to know the rest of the dream
Oh life, is bigger. It's bigger than you
When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
I looked into your eyes,
A trashed out Magazine, An untarnished spirit
I know this will not remain forever
Looking up at the night sky alone, I saw a comet
Being hit by the sleet, my life can be sharpened,
One thing, I don’t know why
Choosing only the things you like
The colour of the wind that blows through the sky
Close your eyes, look up at the sky, and keep dancing barefoot
Here I am with open arms, waiting for my boy to come to me
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
Now the day has come, We are forsaken this time
In the wind shot through with sighs, I saw it

I had a hard time finishing this since 85% of my playlist are all instrumentals and another 10% are Japanese songs to which there are no translations online. But the end poem sounds funny 8P. The titles fits really well too. Thanks to Breaking Benjamin for that :D

Dentist appointment tomorrow.

A question

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 18:48:42 GMT

I've got this little problem I'm hoping someone out here will be able to guide me a little orz.
I'd like to make a couple of prints for a friend of mine. The problem is, I've never drawn anything that is of decent printing quality because I don't know how to do it orz. I know alot of you artists are making prints out of your art so I was wondering if anyone is willing to share some tips ?
What canvas size do you guys draw on for printing purposes (A4 or larger?) ? RBG or CYMK ? Do these two make any difference at all @@? and is a 150 dpi enough resolution for the canvas ?
Also, do I need to avoid certain colors ? I heard many stories about artists having to retouch their images because the printing houses tell them that there are too much greens or (name some color) o_o;
Any other thing I need to know ?

Thank you in advance for any tip or advice ♥

Current WIP, this one is totally unplanned but I really needed to move it up my priority list. Sorry to commisisoners >_<
The friend who is going to receive this has made me so much happy at times I was most depressed. I'm too poor to return her material gifts with something of equal value but I'm pouring my heart and soul into this image so I'm hoping it'd mean something more than any material gift I could've ever afforded T_T
Reno from FF:AC ♥ I'll probably finish it by tomorrow morning.

YOOOSHA >[]</ *back to SAI*

Thank you~

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 12:18:22 GMT

Hijikata Toshirou for frazzled niya. Sorry for making you wait for so long T_T and thank you very much for your help ♥

Also, sorry I haven't been checking my f-list as of late. I've got connection problems since a week now but I hope it'll be fixed soon orz.
Good thing is that when you are offline, you get to finish alot of RL works that you keep on leaving for later lol. So, I did alot of stuff I needed to do long ago and I also got to sketch alot 8D.
I still have heaps of laundry to do OTL, I hate laundry TxT

Back to work.

Art post & meme

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:24:23 GMT

Meme snagged from Permanentwhite;

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now
❶ I'm sorry for troubling you all the time but I know I can depend on you so thank you for taking care of me when everyone else failed me.
❷ The world doesn't revolve around you alone, so stop thinking everything I say is about you.
❸ I can't say it to your face but I love you and I pray for your long life and health.
❹ Despite all the mean things you kept doing and saying behind my back, I still love you and respect you as a person and a friend.
❻ You aren't interesting anymore. This is probably why we stopped communicating.
❼ You are the first artist I've ever felt so close to. I hope you stop being so shy around me and accept me as a trustworthy friend.
❽ We started together & after all these years, you are still at where you started while I moved miles forward. I hope you do realize that I hate losers.
❾ I'm not sorry for what I said.
❿ I don't care about you guys anymore because you are people who can only talk talk talk but don't work on improving your skills.

09 things about yourself
❶ I've never had real life friends because almost everyone I come across is either shallow, superficial, ignorant or downright boring.
❷ Weird thing is, everywhere I am, there'll be atleast 5 to 8 people who'll consider me their bff and I'll just act along so I don't hurt them.
❸ Although I don't like people, everyone's first impression of me, is omg she is so cute and friendly lol.
❹ My smile is probably the only physical feature of mine that people always compliment orz.
❺ I'm very easily provoked >3>!
❻ I'm a 95% hikikomori.
❼ I easily forget the wrong doings of others that's why I'm always at peace with myself and everyone else.
❽ Ummm, I love cold milk.
❾ I hate cooking but I love baking.

08 ways to win your heart
❶ Love educating yourself, read about the world you live in and be interested in improving yourself.
❷ Be an ambitious person and believe in yourself without over-confidence.
❸ Be interesting.
❹ Be open-minded.
❺ Don't jump to conclusions.
❻ When I say I'm fine, don't insist on asking what's wrong with me.
❼ Don't ever joke with me or try to act funny.
❽ Be very very honest and be yourself.

07 things that cross your mind a lot
❶ Why am I doing this ?
❷ I need to stop doing this =[]=!
❸ I hate myself.
❹ STFU.
❺ I LOVE THIS!
❻ They are just talks and are never serious.
❼ How is my future going to be ?

06 things you do before you fall asleep
❶ Start uTorrent.
❷ Pray.
❸ Wash my face and hands.
❹ Brush my teeth.
❺ Open windows.
❻ Think about what I'm going to do tomorrow.

05 people who mean a lot
❶ My deceased mother.
❷ My elder sister.
❸ My Family.
❹ Online friends I regularly talk to.
❺ F.A.

04 things you're wearing right now
❶ Shirt
❷ Skirt
❸ Socks (it's cold in here D8)
❹ Does underwear count @@?

03 songs that you listen to often (currently)
❶ Evanescence - Missing [Not for your ears]
❷ Remioromen- Konayuki [1 Litre no Namida Insert Song]
❸ Within Temptation - Forgiven [The Heart Of Everything]

02 things you want to do before you die
❶ Change my citizenship to a country that doesn't cause me much trouble at borders.
❷ Adopt an orphan.

01 confession
❶ I'm overweight lol. Hopefully, not for long 8D *is exercising regularly 8DD*

Whoa~ This was long .. and fun 8D
And now for some artworks because I haven't posted any in a while.
Haruna Motoki from Ookiku Furikabutte. WHY DOES HE CHANGE IN EVERY PICTURE I DRAW OTLOTLOTL ;[];!
I suck so much at drawing teenager boys orz. I need a little bit shota skills so when I combine it with my current, I'll be able to draw proper teenagers ;__;
Long time no opencanvas ;3; I really missed that program so I colored this image with it.

TYL Dino ♥~ Will definitely draw more of him when I've got the time. Loved his super gay hair style in the poll scans 8D

And a Tadano Kusuriuri from my sketchbook. I've finally got a spacious workspace so from now on, I'll be able to draw more sketches *which I suck big time in doing them but lol anyways*
orz

Also, a small WIP between commissions and art-trades sketchings .. Something random that was meant to be for another community's catboy club but since I quit that site, I'll just keep him to myself 8D

And this is all.
I feel very good these days and I think whatever I draw turn out unexpectedly ok lol. I hope this mood lasts for a long while.
Maybe it's an effect of the good weather nowadays ? So much rain showers and beautiful cold breeze ;3;
Seeing fluffy clouds in the clear blue sky makes me super happy :DDD

F-Cut

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 17:36:30 GMT

Did a small f-list cleaning and removed journals that weren't updated in more than six months to one year, journals that weren't in English or ones related to daily life blogging and no art. Feel free to de-friend if you'd like to.
Those artists who are away, if you are back on LJ anytime in the future and started being active I'm sure I'll find you and friend you back again ^^
For whatever reasons you guys are away, I wish you good luck with your lives :D

Sticky entry is up there in case anyone of you wanted to be re-added although I doubt since I carefully checked the removed journals but just in case.

It's almost over ...

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:43:18 GMT

... and I really don't want it to. Ramadan is probably the only month I feel very happy and peaceful in it despite it being very busy for me. So much trouble with preparing food *even though it's in small amounts lol* but that aside the spiritual aspect of it totally makes up for it. I love how people are connecting more with one another, how there are more family gatherings and specially in the last ten days when hundreds and thousands observe the 'Qiyam' prayers in the heart of night in big mosques. So much tranquility and peace of mind you don't find it in any other time of the year and this is why I feel sad it's going to be over soon *besides I don't like Eid so I don't want it to come, it reminds me of how miserable I am orz*

On 1st Ramadan which coincided with 1st Sept. LJ writer's block posted a question that went like: "Ramadan begins this week. How do you and/or your family celebrate month nine of the Islamic calendar? How are the events of the month important to you?"

I was glad LJ posted this question because it meant they ackknowledge my religion and respect it but after reading the answers I wished if LJ didn't do it. The sheer amount of ignorant and hateful replies made me want to smack those idiot racists with a big stick. I can't believe that in a world where resources are available for researching, there are still so many ignorant people walking on this earth and I really can't understand the reason why so many people hate Islam. I know many Muslims aren't the perfect example of my religion but if you observe closely, this percentage of people happen to be ones who weren't brought up islamically therefor their actions shouldn't be taken as a representation of Islam. The are Muslims by name only. Practicing Muslims are very different and only those who've actually interacted with one have changed their views about Islam.
If anyone of you happen to be the hateful type or the ignorant, I encourage you to view this video. It won't take more than 10 minutes of your life and it might be an eye opener for you.

And please, don't give me the religion is for idiots thing. I'm not writing this to offend anyone. I love you all despite our differences. I just wish that everyone in this world would put aside their differences and concenterate more on their similarites. After all, we are all human beings and the moment you start looking at fellow people with this thought in mind you'll realize that there is nothing different between any one of us.

This said, here are some very beautiful images from Boston.com depicting Ramadan in various parts of the world.
I heartfully thank Boston.com and their photographers for their effort in showing the true essence of this month and Hime Hikari for sharing them on her LJ.

For the rest of the images, please, click here. I promise you they are all worth your bandwidth and time.

If you'd like to know more about Ramadan or Islam in general, you can always use wikipedia or check out this site for more comprehensive information. Also, here are some very interesting reads in case anyone out there is interested.
I'm not promoting Islam here not trying to influence anyone lol 8D.
I'm just tired of seeing ignorant people not reading enough and making stupid statements about things they know nothing of other than what other hateful sites or news sources are telling them.

Aaaaaaaaargh *pulls hair*, I seem to be complaining a little too much these days and I'm afraid it won't stop as long as there are stupid people on this earth. Isn't it like this for you guys too ? I'm sure you understand my need to vent .__.!

WIPs, Junk & Moozik

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 20:51:40 GMT

My sister introduced me to this awesome band called "Core of Soul" and ever since then, I'm pretty much addicted to their songs. I've listened to almost all of their music and I liked "The Best" album and "Natural Beauty" very much. I feel compelled to share their music with you guys and I'm sure you'll like it even if you aren't a fan of Jmusic :D

"Photosynthesis", "Angel", "Full Moon Prayer", "Ageha", "The spirit of this place", "Sweet Dreams" are few of my most favorites by CoS. You can download some from the links down =) and if you liked these, you can get the rest of the album from here. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Core of Soul - Full Moon Prayer [The Best] - 10.73 MB
Core of Soul - Angel [The Best] 8.66 MB

I'm particularly drawn to Angel's lyrics. The story it tells is so beautiful ♥

You called me "angel" & if I ever was
I flew down here a long time ago through a gap in clouds
I wanted to be ordinary to be loved by a man
But you came over and woke my memories up
And I fell in love with you

But I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
I flew high up in the sky but it was because of you
I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
I don't deserve the blue sky or a real angel like you

You said that I had wings & If I ever did
They were invisible all my life till they touched your lips
I wanted to fly again if you could take my hands
But my greed asked for both angel's wing & man's feet
So you were gone with the wind

So I'm not an angel like the one You thought I would be
Oh, how I miss to walk around in the endless sky you showed me
But I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
Maybe it was crucial that I envied your world

I'm not brave enough yet
Cuz I've been here too long, too long
That affection won't let me go

But you called me "angel" & if I ever was...

Too sad, CoS was disbanded in 2006 =( I wonder if the lead singer has released any new songs since then. Her voice is so beautiful ;_;

To make this post lengthy, have some quick doodles ...

He is supposed to be Renoa's original character, Faris\Fadi reading his fangirl's text messages lol. And NO! His eyes aren't closed xD! I was trying to draw a more natural pose than the usual static lifeless oh-I'm-so-hot poses I always do x_x!
Fadi *yes Ren, I prefer this name Xo* makes a good practice object 8D
Lame title is from the song I was listening to while drawing this.

Random dude, ............. posing orz||||

Raito kun emo-ing lol. I remember I drew the sketch of this very VERY long ago when I finished watching the last episode of DeathNote but have never touched it until a week ago. I was too lazy to continue working on it so I just slapped some text and textures on it and viola XD

and a couple of WIPs ...

Art trade with Skween @ dA . Her original characters that'll be butchered by yours truly orz.

LOL sleepy eyes x3x!
Another character owned by Sho san. I draw so much of her characters I'm afraid I might be scaring her with my obsession lol XD
I'll try to come up with my own characters someday soon so that I'll victimize them instead of other people's OCs >8D

How to love your bench 8D

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 17:05:03 GMT

Epic fail !!!

Ahahahhhaaa 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD .. *shots self* orz ... I should post more art instead of lulzy news lol (/w\)!

On another note, This little guy has been keeping me busy the past few weeks but he is gone now and I miss him so much =(
Next time I see him, he'll be mumbling cute words and walking like a penguin. I can't wait till that day C':
I've already started working on the pictures I owe people. Sketched so many drawings last night and finally got around re-styling my site along with this journal.
Tonight, I'll try to reply to all the comments here, on my site and at dA.
Sorry For taking so long to get back to you people and for the previous angsty journal.

Beijing Olympics

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 15:29:31 GMT

I haven't seen anything of it and I've missed watching the opening ceremony because I was away but I know that China ~~as usual~~ is pwning all and that the U.S. media is saying there are underage players in the Chinese gymnastic team ~~lol jealous ? 8D~~ That's all I know of this year's games 8DD;;

WAY TO GO MEEEE!!!

But hey, this is not what my post is about.
I bring you some olympic related lulz and WTFs! 8DDDDDDDDDDDD;;;

D'aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww ...

Oh God, ouch! That must have really hurt D8

The guy on the right; WTF are those ... THINGS on his sides DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD8

LOL 8D, this pic looks so cute 8DDD;; The guys expression reminds me of my little nephew when he does something wrong 8DDDDD

Is this what they call "aerodynamics" ? lol 8DDDDDDDDD

Make sure to check the rest of it here :DDDD
It has lot more interseting and funny pictures so you don't want to miss it.

Sketches and MP3s

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 22:34:51 GMT

I've always been wanting to share some of my favorite mp3s but I always either forget or get troubles with my internet connection. This morning I managed to upload some of my most most favorite songs, ones that I listen to on repeat and thought it'd be cool to share it with you people. I hope you'll like them. Actually, I'm sure you'll like them 8DDDD

GazettE - Guren [Auditory Impression] - 12.44 MB
Guren is one of the very very few songs by The GazettE that I actually enjoy listening to. The other two being Cassis and Defective Tragedy. I loved both the PV and the lyrics of this song and for once, the vocals are very addicting. Lovelovelove it to bits <333333

Ayur - Children of the Earth (Ness's original re-edit) [Beautiful Field] - 3.7 MB
I don't much about who sings this song or where is it from since it was e-mailed to me by a friend but it's super sweet and cute at the same time. I love the kids talking in the beginning and the piano melodies. Wonderful song. A must listen to if you like sweet music.

E.S.Posthumus - Nara (Theme to Cold Case) [Unearthed] - 5.55 MB
I remember I used to make sure I don't miss the OP theme of one of my favorite t.v. shows "Cold Case" because I loved the opening theme very much. I loved this song so much I'd skip watching the show if I had missed the op song lol. A year later while testing a site called seeqpod.com I stumbled upon this song and I found out that it's called Nara by the amazing E.S.Posthumus. I remember I listened to it on repeat for about 5 days when I first downloaded it lol.
In short, this is one amazing piece of music. You really can't miss it.

Ryan Farish - Pacific wind [From the Sky] - 9.97 MB
I've got no words for this song. It always makes me happy when I listen to it and lol, I probably will come out as crazy but when I listen to this music it reminds me that there is always good times after a hardship. Don't ask me why I think of this. I just feel so 8D
All of Ryan Farish's music makes me happy. He is one of my most favorite music composers <333

Scott Matthew - Psychedelic Soul [Stand Alone Complex O.S.T.2]
I accidentally found this song while reading it's lyrics in an image description by an artist in dA. I found the lyrics very moving and decided to give the song a try. I'm glad I did because despite the song being emo and all, it's still so nice to listen to.

Download these, listen to them till the end and let me know what you think XD
I hope someone out there likes some of these.

And because I haven't uploaded any artworks since my return, I'll upload some sketches for now.
A couple of them are old ones and some of you might have seen them on my site but the remaining are ones I drew while in Afghanistan.

And first time drawing Tadano Kusuriuri on my sketchbook. The pictures are arranged in order from oldest to newest and lol, these were all drawn in the same day XD. You can see how retarded he looks at first and then I gradually get better at drawing him. His hair gives me so much trouble but I guess I'm used to drawing it now :DDDDD
**plz ignore the mask thing in the 3rd sketch. I had no reference for these things XD

And a work in progress screenshot ...

This was supposed to be a giftart for a friend for her original character's birthday on 07.07 but I got busy with finishing commissions I didn't get time to work on it ;3; Hopefully, I'll get to finish it tonight. Ahaha XD I wish I could make original characters of my own. I just suck at assigning stories and names to random guys I draw lol.

That's all for now 8D
p.s.: I love these clever ads. X3

Where is Georgia!

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 20:02:22 GMT

LOL!

Opera

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 00:44:03 GMT

I think I've abandoned Firefox in favor of Opera *___*
It's much more interesting, neat, elegant, functional and has a great RSS feed reader and a very cool user interface *3*

I remember I used it not so long ago and hated it so much I immedietly uninstalled it. Yesterday, I was checking a software's news site when I read about Opera and decided to give it another chance, it was like, instant love *__*!!!! Dunno what happened that made me change my mind but I'm glad I gave it another try.

It's so amazing I'm starting to think I should make it my default browser. I love it.
Maybe you guys should give it a try too if you are bored with your current browsers 8D
A change is always good.

Back home where I belong~

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 14:03:47 GMT

It's so good to be home again (*^*)/

Finally, I gathered enough energy to update this journal. I arrived two days ago; alive and in one piece 8D. It's been an exhausting journey on both ways but interesting at the same time. I had alot of fun and learned many things about life and the things I take for granted everyday. I'm thankful to God I have a place to spend my nights in, I have food on my table and I'm fortunate enough to have obtained quality education. People, be thankful for what you have. You don't realize the value of what you've got until you lose it or you see those who are less fortunate.

There were so much greenery. It's been a long time since I've last seen so much green colors in one place. I, also, got to meet so many of my cousins, aunts, uncles and other relatives I didn't know they existed 8D but I was always hanging around older people. I mean, really, REALLY, old people. They were very interesting and had so many good stories to tell 8D.

So many things have happened there both good and bad but I'll spare you the details lol. There were lots of security problems where we lived mainly because our house is very close to a US base so there were lots of army caravans going in and out and these caravans are Taliban's favorite target. There were also occassional explosions and gunfiring everynow and then but thankfully, nothing serious around us. You can see how the blown up roads look like in the pictures below.

I'm glad I'm home back to my family, friends and you guys. Dunno about you but I missed everyone dearly. I missed seeing good artworks so in the next few days I'll be trying to catch up with the internets, answering mails and comments here and there, mailing people with their finished commissions, checking everyone's gallery and journals, updating my sites and checking my favorite artsites.

I'll leave you with some pictures I snagged from my sister's camera. Just in case someone out there was wondering what is it like in Afghanistan :D

I'll post more pictures in another post. These should be enough for now :D
I wish we could take more interesting pictures of people and such but being a girl in a place like where we went to is kind of difficult. You can't go out waving a camera into people's faces when you yourself are an Afghan. You'll be suspected for a spy if you do so. Strangely, they don't mind if some foriegner journalist take their pictures lol.

More importantly, I lost over 25 pounds 8DDDD;;; hahaaaha. If I've spent another 4 months, I'd reach my ideal weight just like that 8'D
*coff*

I think I'm forgetting my English so excuse me OTL||||||
Time to update my accounts ... or not >3>! *is still lazy*

Oh, and happy 25th birthday to me Orz||||||||||||

Dear self,
Please make yourself proud this year and work harder.
Thank you~

So, how is everyone doing ? I hope you guys are having good times wherever you live :D
♥♥♥~

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Thank you frazzeled_niya ;3;