Haha, I wrote a long rant but ended up deleting it because ... I don't know, I felt so stupid or something lol but it felt really good while I was typing. Sorry for being so inactive online but life is really hectic over here. Too much shit to handle, family problems, kids to teach, people to look after, daily stupid endless house chores and whatnot orz; I feel like a 45 years old obasan TWT; anyways,

Art tiem! I should not say sorry for whatever I want to do with my journal here but sorry for those who have to see the drawings below *again* lol but it's only four or five of you lol. I'm adding it here for those who don't visit my homepage so please bear with it until I have something more recent in the coming update orz.

( Old crap )


And a WIP lol. Idk why do I torture myself drawing something I know it'll take me forever and the end result will not be satisfying. That guitar thing is so going to be a pain in the ass orz.

Now, I need to prioritize me to-do list. RE:play contest entry comes first. I'm still sketching it OTL;;; I don't think I'll make it on time but I'll work my ass off the coming two days T_T and then comes finishing commissions. I really need to stop getting side-tracked with drawing fanarts T_T;;;;;;; OOOSH! FIGHT-OOOO

Stay well everyone & be happy for me T_T

I'm feeling so cranky today I'm trying to avoid contact with human beings so I won't say or do something I might regret later on. I hate it when this happens orz. There are so much things I want to do but I can't concentrate because I think I'm depressed or something. Idk but I'm not well which is unusual =w=; I hope I'm out of it soon because I can't afford to waste more time orz.
In the past three days, I've cleared some of my to do list but nothing art related. Finished the new layout for my website and I'm shocked how pretty it looks 8D lol. I still need to optimize it for Opera but it looks perfect in almost all other browsers. I also deleted more than half of my artworks online here and there, removed all old blog entries everywhere and most importantly, I feel so proud I fixed an impossible gallery script error when I know NOTHING about php and shit XDDD haha. I felt impressed with myself when I was done with the gallery lol 8D FYI, integrating ZenPhoto gallery script to your wordpress is a srz bznz for people like me who don't know their way around codes and function calling! Plus, only few can integrate it seamlessly lol hehe.
I still need to make the index page and finish the top image for it. My gallery is empty so I'll have to upload some images there too. Links section needs updating and I still haven't started working on the matching LJ layout.
Such a bad habit of wanting everything to match orzorzorzlllll

Anyways, some sketches;


Poofy hair lolool 8D I didn't notice until after I've scanned the image that his arm is very short orz. The hair looks so messy especially around the bottom but meh >_> I couldn't get it fixed any more than this.
I found out while drawing this that the papers of my sketchbook are of very bad quality. If I erase an area more than twice, the paper starts ripping little by little oAolll I think I'll have to drop by art supplies store someday OR live with that sketchbook and learn not to depend on eraser too much lol 8D


Hika chan's character Val. Instead of drawing random characters, I thought I'd draw all my friend's original characters or else, all the random boys I'll draw will end up naked because dressing them and designing outfits for them is such a pain I don't have time for it lol 8D Val looks really wonky compared to the real thing but first time sketches are always like that lol. He'll look better if I draw him again.


And Phoenix san's Silvador. It's almost finished but needs some fixing here and there, some texts, more playing with textures and a little color correction. I think I'll never release the uncropped version since it's too revealing (/3\*) and Phoenix might kill me for abusing her bishounen in such a perverted way loloolol 8D

Question
I wonder if OC owners hate it or like it when they receive fanarts ? I mean obviously, most of OC artists are always against fanarts but do they hate fanarts of their own characters as well ?
If you own an OC, do you mind seeing artworks that depict your characters without your persmission, of course when all credits are given to you clearly ? I suppose majority don't really mind it and some might feel flattered someone out there is liking their creation enough to want to draw them but say, I did something very kinky to one of your boys, would you, as the character's creator, feel bad ? offended ? O_O ?
I don't know. I have only one under-developed OC but I think I wouldn't mind if someone stripped him for a sexy pose lol.
I'm just worried my friends whose OCs I frequently draw might be hating or disliking me abusing their boys but they are too nice to tell me that ? idk >_> I guess I'm think too much =3=!

Note to self:
REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES AND E-MAILS DAMMIT OTLlllllllll

I've got this little problem I'm hoping someone out here will be able to guide me a little orz.
I'd like to make a couple of prints for a friend of mine. The problem is, I've never drawn anything that is of decent printing quality because I don't know how to do it orz. I know alot of you artists are making prints out of your art so I was wondering if anyone is willing to share some tips ?
What canvas size do you guys draw on for printing purposes (A4 or larger?) ? RBG or CYMK ? Do these two make any difference at all @@? and is a 150 dpi enough resolution for the canvas ?
Also, do I need to avoid certain colors ? I heard many stories about artists having to retouch their images because the printing houses tell them that there are too much greens or (name some color) o_o;
Any other thing I need to know ?

Thank you in advance for any tip or advice ♥

Current WIP, this one is totally unplanned but I really needed to move it up my priority list. Sorry to commisisoners >_<
The friend who is going to receive this has made me so much happy at times I was most depressed. I'm too poor to return her material gifts with something of equal value but I'm pouring my heart and soul into this image so I'm hoping it'd mean something more than any material gift I could've ever afforded T_T
Reno from FF:AC ♥ I'll probably finish it by tomorrow morning.

YOOOSHA >[]</ *back to SAI*

Meme snagged from Permanentwhite;

( meme time ~ )

Whoa~ This was long .. and fun 8D
And now for some artworks because I haven't posted any in a while.
Haruna Motoki from Ookiku Furikabutte. WHY DOES HE CHANGE IN EVERY PICTURE I DRAW OTLOTLOTL ;[];!
I suck so much at drawing teenager boys orz. I need a little bit shota skills so when I combine it with my current, I'll be able to draw proper teenagers ;__;
Long time no opencanvas ;3; I really missed that program so I colored this image with it.

( More under cut ... )

Also, a small WIP between commissions and art-trades sketchings .. Something random that was meant to be for another community's catboy club but since I quit that site, I'll just keep him to myself 8D

And this is all.
I feel very good these days and I think whatever I draw turn out unexpectedly ok lol. I hope this mood lasts for a long while.
Maybe it's an effect of the good weather nowadays ? So much rain showers and beautiful cold breeze ;3;
Seeing fluffy clouds in the clear blue sky makes me super happy :DDD

My sister introduced me to this awesome band called "Core of Soul" and ever since then, I'm pretty much addicted to their songs. I've listened to almost all of their music and I liked "The Best" album and "Natural Beauty" very much. I feel compelled to share their music with you guys and I'm sure you'll like it even if you aren't a fan of Jmusic :D

"Photosynthesis", "Angel", "Full Moon Prayer", "Ageha", "The spirit of this place", "Sweet Dreams" are few of my most favorites by CoS. You can download some from the links down =) and if you liked these, you can get the rest of the album from here. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Core of Soul - Full Moon Prayer [The Best] - 10.73 MB
Core of Soul - Angel [The Best] 8.66 MB

I'm particularly drawn to Angel's lyrics. The story it tells is so beautiful ♥

You called me "angel" & if I ever was
I flew down here a long time ago through a gap in clouds
I wanted to be ordinary to be loved by a man
But you came over and woke my memories up
And I fell in love with you

But I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
I flew high up in the sky but it was because of you
I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
I don't deserve the blue sky or a real angel like you

You said that I had wings & If I ever did
They were invisible all my life till they touched your lips
I wanted to fly again if you could take my hands
But my greed asked for both angel's wing & man's feet
So you were gone with the wind

So I'm not an angel like the one You thought I would be
Oh, how I miss to walk around in the endless sky you showed me
But I'm not an angel like the one you thought I would be
Maybe it was crucial that I envied your world

I'm not brave enough yet
Cuz I've been here too long, too long
That affection won't let me go

But you called me "angel" & if I ever was...

Too sad, CoS was disbanded in 2006 =( I wonder if the lead singer has released any new songs since then. Her voice is so beautiful ;_;

To make this post lengthy, have some quick doodles ...


( This is a cut to save space on your f-page 8D )
I'll try to come up with my own characters someday soon so that I'll victimize them instead of other people's OCs >8D

A deadly toothache that's been inflicted upon my jaw for no apparent reason is going to kill me. Cavity is going to be the cause of my painful death and when people ask my family how I passed away, they can tell them it's because I had a damn crater in one of my molars Orz.
Unless, of course, I see a dentist AGAIN Orz Orz Orz

*swallows a handful of painkillers*



A non oofuri related doodle. Finally, Gintama is getting more and more serious. Episode 58 and 59 felt really weird. It's the first time in so long this series had no crack in one of it's episodes. At one point, I felt like I'm watching another anime 8D but it's all cool. Takasugi is ♥.
Still 40+ episodes behind T_T. Why is it that some really silly animes are being subbed by so many groups while something as cool and interesting as Gintama isn't getting any love ;_; Only Rumble subs are working on it and I'm so grateful to those guys T_T
Maybe I should draw them a giftart or something. They really deserve it ♥


And a BLOOD+ WIP. I'm rewatching the anime and downloaded 5 volumes of raw manga from somewhere  I don't remember now lol.
That makes me so much in the mood to draw more of it.


The manga is cute especially the past part where Hagi and Saya meet for the first time ♥, Hagi is not as stoic as he is in the anime.
Also, MANGA DIVA IS SUCH A LUNATIC BI*** （≡д≡） I was amazed at the so much altered details. Ch. 12 was a shock even though I didn't understand a word lol. Poor Hagi ;;_;;

*goes to view more*